I hear this saying a lot, and I never really take it in. Recently however, I’ve started to understand it. I’ve not long gotten out of a depression spiral, and the house suffered for it. Even small tasks seemed impossible, asides from things for TJ – mum mode seems to override my depression in terms of getting him up and ready for school, meeting his basic needs like getting him food, drinks and keeping him clean and tidy. On Tuesday of this week I went back on my antidepressants which I’m already contemplating coming back off them because I’m not sleeping, but that’s another story. As well as this, I sat and made a list of everything I needed to get done housework wise, it was a very long, daunting list and I couldn’t see me doing any of it with how my brain was fighting against me. Anyway the day carried on, I forced myself to go into town even though I didnt really need to, just for something to do to keep me from laying on the sofa overthinking all day. Whilst out I saw some products that I kept seeing on all the cleaning Instagrams etc, they were cheap enough so I picked a few up.
I was eager to use them but by the time I got home, because buses are awful I didnt really have time before getting TJ from school, and then TJ had a rough time at school and had a sensory overload when he got home and needed my full attention all night so not alot got done and we ended up ordering food in. (At least that’s less washing up to catch up though haha)
Bedtime finally came for TJ, and I was flicking through Instagram and came across cleaning accounts, all these people had perfect show homes that barely got dirty enough to need cleaning, which made my mind worse! Why isnt my house this perfect? Anyway it got me thinking, what about a more realistic cleaning routine? After joking to a friend about making my own cleaning account, I took the plunge. The account aims to be for when lows hit and you still want to get things done, and realistic cleaning regimes for houses that actually get dirty! The account is @disinfectingmymind if youd like to give it a follow.
So Wednesday comes, I drop off TJ at school and I finally get the chance to try these new products. It was like I was possessed, I had my list and things were being ticked off, and it felt great. Some jobs took a lot longer than others, like my sons room – who new a kid could make so much mess? But I got most of them done before I needed to pick up TJ, when he came home we played for a bit in his nice tidy and clean room and he promised me he’d keep it tidy. (We’ll see!)
For the most part the house was tidy and clean, and I already felt so much better for it. I managed to get myself in the shower once TJ was in bed, and I didnt even feel bad about the fact that there was a few bits left on the list, whereas usually I’d be really anxious and feel like I hadnt accomplished anything if my list wasn’t all ticked off. The jobs that weren’t done have been added to today’s list and theyll get done eventually.
So tidy house, tidy mind?
I think there’s definitely some truth there!